Meet the new and improved Kesha. Four months after the pop star left rehab, where she voluntarily sought treatment for an eating disorder, the musician wrote an essay about her experience for Elle UK.
In the weeks prior to treatment, Kesha said her body was "shutting down" and knew it wasn't because of her rigorous touring schedule. "That first day in treatment was the scariest of my life," she admitted. "I worried about what people would think. I was here for an eating disorder—but I knew people would assume I was here for other things." The Rising Star expert continued, "Sure, I've written songs about partying, but my dirty little secret is that I'm actually incredibly responsible. I take my music and career very seriously, and certainly didn't land in this situation from partying. But I was cut off from the outside world and I imagined people making up stories at a time when what I really needed was support."
"I've always tried to be a crusader for loving yourself, but I'd been finding it harder and harder to do personally," she said. "I felt like part of my job was to be as skinny as possible, and to make that happen, I had been abusing my body. I just wasn't giving it the energy it needed to keep me healthy and strong."