Kendra Wilkinson-Baskett isn't giving up on her marriage to Hank Baskett just yet.
"I'm not the type of person to flip a switch and just shut my love for Hank off," she told me earlier this week while promoting the new season of their WE tv reality show Kendra on Top. "I love him so much. That's why I'm in so much pain.
"We're talking about Hank—the most perfect gentleman, Christian, the perfect father, the perfect husband, the perfect man," she continued. "He caters to my every move. He's never even yelled at me before and here we are dealing with this mess."
Their marriage took a downturn about four months ago when a tabloid claimed that Hank had cheated on Kendra with a transsexual woman. Hank has denied the reports.
"What if there is more that comes out?" she said. "I can't sit here and say I'm going to stay with him and then tomorrow another story comes out. What if this is another Tiger Woods situation?"
She added, "This has come out of nowhere. It's like I'm living a nightmare. It's so unreal…I can't even wake up from it. Is this really Hank? Is this situation really about Hank?"
Kendra has said she's been close to divorcing Hank. So much so, she tells me, that she went out partying a couple of times with her girlfriends to see what being single again would feel like.
"I have a newborn baby and a four-year-son, so it's not like I have the time to do online dating," Kendra said. "I went out two nights. I wanted to see if guys still want me. But that's how I know I'm married because I'm still shut off from all that. I don't want to do this. I'm so over that stuff. I'd rather focus on taking my time on my marriage. It's worth it to me. If he's denying it, then why not give him the benefit of the doubt?"
So why is Kendra being so open about their problems?
"It's therapeutic to me," she said. "I have no shame. I've always been an honest person. It actually helps me because I get to talk about my feelings."