Amanda Knox, a free woman after spending four years in an Italian prison for a murder she insists she didn't commit, remains fairly traumatized by the experience.
Despite her conviction being overturned, the Italian Supreme Court determined in March that she should be retried for the 2007 killing of her roommate—and the Seattle native fears having to relive the nightmare.
"I find it incredible that despite an absolute lack of evidence that connects me to this murder, I am still being judged based upon unrealistic and unreasonable expectations about how a young woman would react to a horrible situation," Knox, referring to how authorities judged her reaction to hearing that Meredith Kercher had been killed in the cottage they were sharing in Umbria, Italy, told CNN's Chris Cuomo in an interview airing Tuesday.
"No one knows how they would react to a horrible situation until it happens to them." Knox said. "I have cried. I have been angry. I have been scared. And these were all things...that I have shown, that have come out of me."
The 25 year old is not required to attend the retrial and she is debating whether to make the trip.
"I'm afraid to go back there," she said. In Italy, "people think it's arrogant of me to sit here in the United States, and have a book come out, and to defend myself. First of all, I find that incredibly unfair because I have the right to defend myself. And no one can ask me to just shut up because it's convenient. But at the same time, I want to prove to them that I care about what's going on."
"There's no evidence against me," Knox continued. "There is nothing that links me to this murder. I am not present at the crime scene. I am just not."
Theories floated by Italian authorities about her being involved in some sort of sex-game-gone-wrong with Kercher and others are "absurd," she also said in the interview.
"No one has ever claimed that I was ever taking part in deviant sexual activity," Knox said. "None of my roommates, none of my friends, none of the people who knew me there. This is simply coming out of the prosecution...I was not strapping on leather and bearing a whip. I have never done that. I have never taken part in an orgy. Ever."