Bethenny Frankel's split from husband Jason Hoppy is taking its toll on the ususally strong-willed reality star. Exhibit A: Frankel's appearance on Ellen, which airs today.
"As I can see you are already getting emotional. You could've canceled easily," Ellen DeGeneres told Frankel. "You were booked for this show and you could of easily canceled...These are just some of the magazine [holds up a stack of magazines] that you're on the cover of and that's got to hurt like hell to have to deal with that."
"It's difficult. Well, first of all, yeah. Do I want to be doing this exact thing right now? No, but I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's fairy princess, fairytale and then not take my hits when I have to," Frankel responded.
"I've kind of had the best worst year ever. So I have to you know, it's the highs and the lows. Does this [the magazines] especially bother me? No, but dealing with that plus personal stuff at the same time is very surreal thing. Just going through something personal you have so many different emotions and I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you. And, I feel like a failure."
After DeGeneres reassured Bethenny that she is far from a disappointment or failure, Frankel said that she just didn't want fans to lose their hope in finding true love, because it's still out there.
"I wanted the fairy tale. I thought I had it. And [daughter] Bryn is my fairy tale...I get letters…So many people have been so supportive and some people are judgmental and I really understand. But I also get letters from people saying, now I don't believe in love and that's just not true. Love is everywhere. It's the road and you're on it. It has peaks and valley and that's what it is but I don't know how people go through this because this is excruciating. I have to say," she explained.
"But look, the truth is, I wanted to rip the Band-Aid off so it could start to heal. This will obviously be better, Bethenny continued, "I'm scared of the unknown future. You know everything and one day you don't know. So I'm scared. I'm older. And I want to be able to say to people, 'It's about what I do now.' I never thought I'd be a role model but I think to some people I am or have been. So this is an important time because it's about what I do next. How I handle myself now with grace, with dignity. This is the time now that matters."
Way to stay strong, Bethenny.