Lil Nas X is opening up about using marijuana to cope with the deaths of a loved one and popular members of the rap community, his decision to come out and his family.
"So much happened during my rise. You know, drugs and murders," he told the outlet, referring to the deaths of Nipsey Hussle, who was shot dead at age 33 in Los Angeles in March, XXXTentacion, who was killed in a shooting in Florida in 2018, and Juice Wrld, who died at age 21 in December at a Chicago airport after suffering a seizure.
"And my grandmother passing [in 2018]— she was the first person close to me who died," Lil Nas X continued. "It was devastating. And it made me a hypochondriac: I'd wake up, heart racing. It was scary."
He said he later self-medicated by "smoking [weed] heavily."
"But then I started feeling more connected with the universe, and taking everything as a sign," he said.