Claire Holt has suffered a miscarriage.
The Originals alum shared the heartbreaking news with her Instagram followers on Sunday. Sharing a picture of herself in the hospital, Holt wrote to her fans, "I took this photo 10 days ago, as I waited for surgery after my sweet little baby lost its heartbeat. I sent it to my fiancé in the waiting room to show him that I was ok. I wasn't. I've never felt more broken in my life."
Holt continued, "I debated sharing this so soon and I'm still frightened about making such a private struggle public, but I'm doing it anyway because it's important."
"After my D & C, I spent hours on the internet searching for women who had been through it," she said. "I was desperate to find someone, anyone, who could relate to what I was feeling. Someone to tell me that the depression and hopelessness were normal. That it wasn't my fault. That I wasn't broken forever. I found a community of women who shared my exact experience. Who were open and vulnerable about miscarriage, something that isn't often or openly discussed"
"It breaks my heart to think that losing a baby feels like something we have to keep to ourselves," Holt went on to write. "Why is it any different than the death of a loved one? How is it any less meaningful? Here is what I have learned as I begin to crawl out of the dark hole: support is everything. I could not have survived this without the unconditional love of my partner. Despite his pain, he was my rock and my safety net. I will never know how to thank him."
Holt also shared that she found opening up to people is "crucial."
"As soon as I told my story, almost everyone I spoke to told me theirs - their own, their wife's, their sister's," Holt said. "So many people go through it and understand the breadth of pain, yet so few people talk about it. Finally, I want to share a blog post that resonated with every part of me. You can find the link in my bio, @leandramcohen of @manrepeller articulates the emotional rollercoaster with an eloquence that I could never possess. To anyone out there who has been through a miscarriage, I understand you. I share every bit of your pain and you are not alone. Please be kind to yourself and I hope that you will be comfortable sharing your story too."
You can see the blog post she mentions HERE.
Holt announced her engagement to Andrew Joblon in December.