Chris Brown Admits He Felt "Like a F--king Monster" After Rihanna Assault

R&B singer opens up in new documentary about his life

By Francesca Bacardi Apr 18, 2016 7:45 PMTags

We'll finally get to hear from Chris Brown.

The R&B singer stars in the upcoming documentary, Welcome to My Life: The Official Chris Brown Documentary, which received its first trailer Sunday. The movie plans to focus on Brown's quick rise to stardom and include the 2009 evening when he assaulted then-girlfriend Rihanna. The trailer features A-list musicians including Usher, Jennifer Lopez, DJ Khaled, Mary J. Blige and more, all of whom comment on Brown's inevitable success.

But it's when he begins to address the Rihanna controversy that the trailer takes an intense turn. "This is the first time I get to say anything," Brown says in the clip.

The new documentary's trailer features the 26-year-old "Loyal" singer discussing the famous night before the Grammys but also shows him looking to the future. "I went from being on top of the world, No. 1 songs, being kind of like America's sweetheart to being Public Enemy No. 1," Brown recalls. "I felt like a f--king monster. I was thinking about suicide, I wasn't sleeping, I barely ate...If there was ever a doubt in your mind Chris Brown was done, he was finished...I wouldn't bet on it."


The trailer doesn't way when Welcome to My Life would be released. Brown hasn't commented on the documentary's release but did tweet out the trailer to his followers Sunday. Since that fateful night in 2009, Brown has experience several ups and downs when it comes to the law. His probation surrounding the Rihanna incident ended in March 2015.

In January 2016 Brown, who now has a daughter named Royalty, was accused of possible misdemeanor battery and theft after a woman claimed he assaulted her and took her cell phone. He wasn't arrested or charged with a crime, and his rep told E! News in a statement that her accusations were "completely false."

Ever since Royalty was born, Brown has said he is a changed man. "It's actually great. It's very humbling. You know, it's very calming. I think I was a lot, you know, rambunctious, very hyper as a kid but now seeing that 10 times over, my daughter's kinda like mellowing me out," he told Ryan Seacrest of fatherhood.

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