Kesha Details Overcoming Her Eating Disorder, Says Every Day Is a ''Choice to be Kind to Myself''

Singer recently completed a stint in rehab last year

By Lily Harrison May 15, 2015 4:02 PMTags
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Kesha's come a long way since seeking treatment for an eating disorder in January 2014.

The singer has been open about her body image struggles since leaving the rehabilitation facility, and now she's sitting down with Vogue to share more about her journey.

"I wanted to be more confident in myself—embrace every inch of my body—not try to cover up with makeup," the 28-year-old explained.

"I've had a lot of ups and downs…I went to a dark place. There was a lot of not eating—and I started to think being hungry to the point of feeling almost faint was a positive thing. The worse it got, the more positive feedback I was getting. Inside I was really unhappy, but outside, people were like, 'Wow you look great.'"

Kesha also shared that she felt her message to fans—about self-confidence and acceptance—completely contradicted how she felt about herself.

"I wanted to be genuine. But I was sad and [I wasn't eating]. That's not good for your body, metabolism, or brain. I talked to my therapist, and she said, 'I think it's time we take a moment to address this.' I called my mom one night and I told her, 'I need help.' I went to an eating-disorder specific rehab site where a nutritionist taught me that food is a positive thing for your body.

"I realized being healthy is the most important think I can do for myself. Now I'm trying to embrace the skin I'm in. It's difficult sometimes. Every day I have to look in the mirror and make the choice to be kind to myself. This is who I am—I have to love that."