New York Magazine
Alec Baldwin is going out with a bang.
In a 5,284-word essay for New York magazine, as told to Joe Hagan, the 30 Rock actor said "goodbye to public life" and announced plans to move to California. "I've lived this for 30 years, I'm done with it."
"I loathe and despise the media in a way I did not think possible," Baldwin wrote in the Feb. 24 issue. "This is the last time I'm going to talk about my personal life in an American publication ever again."
Baldwin, 55, then detailed his "s--tty" 2013. "I find myself bitter, defensive, and more misanthropic than I care to admit. And I'm trying to understand what happened, how an altercation on the street, in which I was accused—wrongly—of using a gay slur, could have cascaded like this," he wrote. "There's been a shift in my life. And it's caused me to step back and say, 'This is happening for a reason.'"
Acknowledging his reputation as a hothead, Baldwin referenced an incident in November when, by his own account, a TMZ photographer "ambushed me as I was putting my family in a car, and I chased him down the block and said, 'C---sucking mother---er' or whatever (when I have some volatile interaction with these people, I don't pull out a pen and take notes on what I said)." Calling celebrity website TMZ's founder a "cretinous barnacle on the press," Baldwin asked his readers, "Do people really, really believe that, when I shouted at that guy, I called him a 'f----t' on-camera? Do you honestly believe I would give someone like TMZ's Harvey Levin, of all people, another club to beat me with?"
He later wrote, "I get angry, and I've said all sorts of things in anger, but I'd never use that word."
The Long Island native dismissed the idea that he's anti-gay and then offered evidence to the contrary.
"Am I a homophobe? Look, I work in show business. I am awash in gay people, as colleagues and as friends. I'm doing Rock of Ages one day, making out with Russell Brand. Soon after that, I'm advocating with Jesse Tyler Ferguson and Cynthia Nixon for marriage equality. I'm officiating at a gay friend's wedding," he wrote. "I'm not a homophobic person at all. But this is how the world now sees me."