James Devaney/WireImageBethenny Frankel is trying to find a balance between the highs and lows of her life right now.
The former Bravo reality star is embroiled in a bitter divorce and custody battle with her future ex-husband, Jason Hoppy, and she's about to launch her new daytime talk show Bethenny.
The Skinnygirl cocktail mogul stopped by ABC's Nightline to discuss what is really going on in her personal and professional life.
"I'm going through a brutal, brutal time," the 42-year-old revealed in the interview. "It really, really is. I mean, there is no other way to slice it."
The former chef also confessed that the dissolution of her marriage has left her feeling "definitely bruised."
Bethenny also talked about the guilt she's faced with, stemming from making her relationship (and road to marriage) so public on her spinoff series' Bethenny Getting Married and Bethenny Ever After.
She admitted that she feels she's let her fans down "because I felt like I was this role model that represented the fairytale."
Ultimately though, she said that she's glad she let the cameras follow both the good and the bad parts of their relationship.
"I don't regret letting the cameras roll at all. I could have skated by. I could have stayed on the show and been like, ‘Oh everything's perfect with us. Everything's great,'" She explained. "It made me feel dirty for people to think that I had this perfect relationship and this perfect life."
So how does this busy mom unwind from the daily stress of divorce woes and gearing up for her first hosting gig?
"Sex would be a nice release," she confessed. "I like to have a Skinnygirl cocktail, I'm not going to lie. It does take the edge off. Honestly, it's mommy juice!"