Kim Kardashian Explains Divorce: She "Married for Love" but "Maybe Rushed Into Something Too Soon"

E! star posts a lengthy message to fans admitting that televising her wedding "maybe wasn't the smartest decision" and says she'll donate gift money to charity

By Natalie Finn Nov 02, 2011 12:15 AMTags
Kim Kardashian, Kris HumphriesKevin Mazur/WireImage

Kim Kardashian is setting the record straight.

Faced with rumors that her marriage to Kris Humphries was a publicity stunt, the E! star has taken time out to address her fans directly, calling her latest blog post "the hardest thing I've ever had to write."

"I am trying not to read all the different media reports but it's hard not to see all the negative ones," wrote Kim, who landed in Australia today along with Khloé Kardashian Odom and Lamar Odom. "First and foremost, I married for love. I can't believe I even have to defend this."

But Kim knows that the millions of people who read about her whirlwind romance—and then watched her get married—want some answers.

"I would not have spent so much time on something just for a TV show!" she continued. "I share so much of my life on a reality show, that contemplating whether to even film my wedding was a tough decision to make, and maybe it turned out to not be the smartest decision. But it's who I am! We filmed Kourtney giving birth, Khloé getting married, break ups, make ups, our best moments and our worst moments. These were all real moments. That's what makes us who we are. We share, we give, we love and we are open!"

Kim's words reflect what mom Kris Jenner said earlier today in vigorous defense of her daughter's feelings for Humphries and the tough decision she made about splitting up.

"Everyone that knows me knows that I'm a hopeless romantic!" Kim wrote today. "I love with all of my heart and soul. I want a family and babies and a real life so badly that maybe I rushed in to something too soon. I believed in love and the dream of what I wanted so badly. I felt like I was on a fast roller coaster and couldn't get off when now I know I probably should have. I got caught up with the hoopla and the filming of the TV show that when I probably should have ended my relationship, I didn't know how to and didn't want to disappoint a lot of people."

"I'm being honest here and I hope you respect my courage because this isn't easy to go through," she explained. "But I do know that I have to follow my heart. I never had the intention of hurting anybody and I accept full responsibility for my actions and decisions, and for taking everyone on this journey with me. It just didn't turn out to be the fairy tale I had so badly hoped for."

Kim went on to address the more cynical rumors out there. "There are also reports that I made millions of dollars off of the wedding," Kim wrote. These reports are simply not true and it makes me so sad to have to even clarify this."

The E! network released its own statement Tuesday: "Any insinuation that E! and producers orchestrated Kim's wedding is completely false. The Kardashians have authentically lived their lives on camera for a long time and Kim's wedding is one of the many real-life events that the family has shared with viewers, from Mason's birth to coping with their father's death to Khloé and Lamar's wedding."

Kim closed her message to her fans with, "I'm so grateful to everyone who took the time to come to my wedding and I'll be donating the money for all the gifts to the Dream Foundation. I'm sorry if I have hurt anyone, but my dad always told me to follow my heart I believe now that I really am."

Kim filed for divorce yesterday at 72 days of marriage.