Kirsten Dunst Talks "Awful" Time Before Rehab, Not Knowing "Difference Between Right or Wrong"

Actress speaks about the 2008 experience that was triggered by depression

By Peter Gicas Dec 08, 2010 5:09 PMTags
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Kirsten Dunst, who stars in the upcoming film All Good Things, wants you to know that things are all good.

Of course, that wasn't always the case, as the actress speaks out for the first time about her rehab stint for depression back in 2008. 

"I know what it's like to lose yourself, to no longer know the difference between right or wrong," the Marie Antoinette star tells BlackBook magazine while recalling her stay at the Cirque Lodge treatment center in Park City, Utah.

And while she goes on describe that period of time as "awful"—not just for her, but for the friends and family members who were put in a position of having to defend her against rumors that the rehab might also be related to drugs or alcohol—Dunst opts to keep any further details about the experience private. 

"On a personal level, I would talk to anybody about it, but not on a public level," she says. "If I do that, then the next person feels like they can ask me about it, and the person after that, until everyone feels entitled to ask me about it, and that's not coming from a good place."

But the 28-year-old Dunst does reveal that her past struggles did help her connect with her character's fragility in All Good Things

"I was ready to play something like that," she says. "I had been living on the surface, emotionally, and I was feeling really vulnerable, so I was prepared to do anything at that point."