Alexa Demie is keeping her head up in the wake of her Euphoria costar Angus Cloud's tragic death.
The actress, who plays Maddy Perez in the HBO drama, briefly touched on her grief while discussing her latest project. Recalling how the set of her new Calvin Klein campaign shoot with Inez and Vinoodh was "light and fun," Alexa said the energy was much-welcomed in her life following the actor's passing.
"I'm realizing that healing and processing does not look like one thing," she told W magazine in an interview published Aug. 18. "So right now, I'm trying to be light when I can."
She added that working with Inez Van Lamsweerde and Vinoodh Matadin allowed her to tap into a range of emotions, as the famed photography team knows "how make you feel so comfortable, so powerful, so beautiful, but also vulnerable."
"I was kind of shocked because usually there's some tension or some drama on a big campaign shoot," the 32-year-old shared, "but there was nothing of that sort."
Angus died on July 31 at his family home in Oakland, Calif. He was 25.
A cause of death has not been released by officials, though his mom Lisa Cloud has noted that he "did not intend to end his life."
"I also want you to know that although my son was in deep grief about his father's untimely death from mesothelioma, his last day was a joyful one," she wrote in an Aug. 4 Facebook post. "When we hugged goodnight we said how much we loved each other and he said he would see me in the morning. I don't know if or what he may have put in his body after that. I only know that he put his head on the desk where he was working on art project's, fell asleep and didn't wake up."
Lisa added, "We may find out that he overdosed accidentally and tragically, but it's abundantly clear that he did not intend to check out of this world."
Alexa was one of the many Euphoria stars who honored Angus on social media amid news of his death, sharing a broken heart emoji on her Instagram Story.
To see more tributes from the cast, keep reading.
"Been trying to figure out what to say, but idk if any combination of words can articulate all of the big feelings. for now i just wanna say: Angus was a sunshine. to have known his warmth, his light, and his love was nothing short of a gift. i'm so grateful to have shared so many enormous fits of laughter, so many sweet moments, and the joy of getting to make something together that we loved so much.
i love you angus thank you for everything. my heart goes out to his family and all of his loved ones right now."
"Angus was the funniest person ever. I would get so excited to see on the schedule that we would be working together because I knew we'd have the best day, laughing so hard. He was the sweetest and made everyone around him so happy. He was just the best. Words can't really capture how magical of a person he was. My heart is broken."
Apatow, added, "Angus, getting to know and work with you was one of the greatest joys and blessings of my life." she added. "I will love you forever."
"A genuinely kindhearted person. Im really glad to have gotten to know him. This is a devastating loss. Rest in peace, Angus."
"I love you so much. you will be missed tremendously."
"Words are not enough to describe the infinite beauty that is Angus (Conor). I'm so grateful I got the chance to know him in this life, to call him a brother, to see his warm kind eyes and bright smile, or hear his infectious cackle of a laugh (I'm smiling now just thinking of it) I know people use this expression often when talking about folks they love…"they could light up any room they entered" but boy let me tell you, he was the best at it. I'd like to remember him that way. For all of the boundless light, love and joy he always managed to give us. I'll cherish every moment. My heart is with his mother and family at this time and please be kind and patient as grief looks different for everyone."
"Angus you were an open soul, with the kindest heart, and you filled every room with laughter. This is the hardest thing ive ever had to post, and im struggling to find all the words. You will be missed more than you know, but I'm so blessed to have known you in this lifetime, and I'm sure everyone who has ever met you feels the same. This heartache is real and I wish we could've had one more hug and 711 run. All my love is with you."
"There was no one quite like Angus. He was too special, too talented and way too young to leave us so soon... He also struggled, like many of us, with addiction and depression. I hope he knew how many hearts he touched. I loved him. I always will. Rest in peace and God Bless his family."
"Miss you bro."
"The tears just won't stop."
"You were a gentle beautiful soul. You exited to soon."
"Rest easy angus."
"We did our season 1 promo together and got a chance to really chop it up. One of the most genuine, laid back, beautiful spirit in this crazy industry…and that magnetic smile. I'm so thankful to have met you and hear your wild stories about Oakland. You are loved and missed my friend."
"He was a one off. I'm truly sad."
"Forever Family."
"Angus, I'll never forget talking about what it meant to be some Cali kids doing it big. You really didn't care about the flashy lights or fancy events. Your rawness and authenticity were my favorite things about being around you. Truly at a loss for words…My thoughts and prayers go out to family and friends close to you during this difficult time…"
"Couldn't be more real, original and sweet. Loved this kid. Always smiles. I hope this sensitive soul is at rest."
"He was kind and gracious and so unique. You couldn't take your eyes off him, on film or on set. How lucky we all were to have witnessed his work. It was beyond truthful, every damn take. My heart hurts."
"please remember how loved you are. this world is so quick to make you feel otherwise. there are reasons to stick around. and this world needs you. oh, angus. we celebrate you."
"Good soul."
"I have this art piece he made me on a water bottle and I'll keep it forever... Such a rare soul.. instantly friends from meeting when we did this event together. You will be missed."
"Just saw the news about the loss of Angus. I only got to work with him a couple of times, but I was immediately drawn to his kind, gentle spirit. My deepest condolences to his closest and loved ones. May he rest in peace."
"You will be deeply missed. Rest in Power @anguscloud."
"Not the news I wanted to hear this morning g. Rest in Power Angus Cloud."
"Wow angus cloud gone too soon.. rest in peace angel."