Meghan Trainor is all about spilling the secrets of her sex life.
The "Made You Look" singer recently shared what goes on in the bedroom between her and husband Daryl Sabara, candidly dropping NSFW details about why she sometimes fears those intimate moments.
"My husband is a big boy," she said of the Spy Kids alum in an April 19 episode of her Workin' On It podcast. "My p---y is broken, though. I have p---y anxiety."
When podcast guest Trisha Paytas asked, "Yours is little and his is big, is that what's happening?" Meghan exclaimed, "Yes!"
"To the point where I'm like 'Is it all in?' and he's like, 'Just the tip,'" Meghan explained. "And I'm like, 'I can't do anymore.' I don't know how to fix that."
In fact, if she could change something about her husband, Meghan noted, "I wish I could make Daryl smaller. It's painful, dude."
Meghan said that, after consulting with a doctor, she learned the pain is a result of vaginismus, which is the involuntary tensing of the vagina, according to the Cleveland Clinic.
"I was told I have something called vaginismus," she added. "I thought that every woman walking around was always in pain during and after sex. I was like, doc, are you telling me that I could have sex and not feel a single bit of pain?"
The couple's sex life was briefly impacted by the arrival of their first son, Riley, now 2. Meghan recalled how "for a year" after welcoming Riley, she stirred at the idea of getting intimate.
"Do not look at me, do not touch me," Meghan said. "It took me so long to even consider having sex with him."
She said that during that time, though, Daryl was a "saint" and that she still "made sure he was fine."
And when it came to the pair's second son, who Meghan is currently expecting, the singer explained how she navigated the pain, which she described as "stingy" and "burny."
"As he would penetrate, I would be like, 'Ow, ow, ow," like to the point when I was making this baby, I had to ice myself after," she said. "And we're not crazy, I'm a starfish, I go, 'Get it done.' We're having fun, it's great. Get it done. And then I'm icing myself and I go, 'There's gotta be another way.'"
Meghan said she's searched for ways to relieve the pain, including trying "every angle," except "each one is worse than the other." When Trisha mentioned that "sitting on top of it would be…" Meghan answered, "a nightmare!"
"He was like, 'Let's try,' I'm like 'Please, no, for so many reasons,'" she continued. "I'm like 'Don't look at me. I don't like this. This hurts way worse.'"
Lamenting the "aftermath" of their intimacy, Meghan noted, "I'm like, ‘Daryl, I have to work today, and I can't walk.'"
Meghan has even tried her hand at transcendental meditation to improve the pain, but the only caveat is that she falls "asleep every time."
However, she remains committed on finding a way forward.
"I'm gonna figure it out," she said. "I'm gonna be a star at sex."