Sure, 2020 wasn't one for the books for most people. But it ended up being Lily Collins' year.
She spent most of it in sweatpants, like so many others, but that just meant she was extremely comfortable as the results of her very busy 2019 unfolded. Then it was on to 2021, to collect the spoils, which early on included her first-ever Golden Globe nomination for her star turn in one of the most debated shows of quarantine, Emily in Paris.
And now, Collins as a producer shares in the Best Comedy Series Emmy nomination for the City of Light-set escapist fare, in which the Chicago-born title character's adorably American ways butt up against the savoir faire of the French at a Parisian fashion company. In fact, she was busy filming season two with co-star Ashley Park when they got the good news.
"[We] were together on set in my apartment when she read her phone and said, 'Were we? Are we? We were nominated for the Emmys!'" Collins recalled to W magazine. "We didn't know they were being announced, and then we just started screaming and had to yell, 'Cut!'"
But while Emily's prospects for romance are wide-open ("I think it would be a little early for Emily to lock something in," Collins told Deadline in February), before the show had premiered at all in 2020, the star herself got engaged!
"You know what's really funny?" she said in December on E!'s Daily Pop when asked if wedding planning with director fiancé Charlie McDowell was underway. "I wasn't that young girl who, like, had it all figured out...but I am someone now who's like, 'I think I know exactly what I want.' So it's fun."
Sure enough, the couple wed in an intimate ceremony at the picturesque Dunton Hot Springs in Dolores, Colo., on Sept. 4, the bride wearing Ralph Lauren and the small guest list full of VIPs.
"Charlie, my son, and Lily, my daughter-in-law!!!" wrote Oscar winner and mother of the groom Mary Steenburgen after the festivities. "Thank you for letting us all bask in the sheer beauty of your love for each other. My heart is overflowing and it almost feels like the last few days were some sort of beautiful dream. But it is all real, and I feel like the luckiest mother in the world." (McDowell is Mrs. Ted Danson's son from her first marriage, to Malcolm McDowell.)
Sharing photos from her big day, Collins wrote, "Never been happier. What started as a fairytale, is now my forever reality. I'll never be able to properly describe how otherworldly this past weekend was, but magical is a pretty good place to start…"
And she might know a thing or two about auspicious beginnings.
Born in Surrey, England, and raised in Los Angeles by mom Jill Tavelman after her parents split up when she was 5, the raven-haired beauty did seem to have all the elements in place to glide through life like a certain social media maven who takes the City of Light by storm.
She spent much of her formative life acting, modeling, writing (she made her on-camera debut in a BBC series when she was 2 and had an Elle Girl column at 15) and wielding a microphone—not as a singer, like her famous father Phil Collins, but as an on-the-ground host for Nickelodeon's Kids Pick the President election series in 2008. She dropped out of USC, where she went to study broadcast journalism, but won the Young Hollywood Award for Newest Red Carpet Correspondent instead.
Though she has said that she never spent very much time in Paris before moving there for a few months to shoot the first season of her Netflix series, she had made some memories in the French capital, such as when she made her society debut at the Crillon Ball (now the Le Bal des Débutantes) in 2007. Phil shared a photo of their father-daughter dance at the event in his 2016 memoir, Not Dead Yet, a tradition that's also been experienced over the years by Bruce Willis, Forest Whitaker and Sylvester Stallone with their respective debutante daughters.
After just one two-episode guest spot on the CW's 90210, Lily got her big-screen break playing Sandra Bullock's daughter in 2009's The Blind Side. She went on to star in films such as Mirror Mirror opposite Julia Roberts, Rules Don't Apply co-starring and directed by Warren Beatty (for which she earned her first Golden Globe nomination), To the Bone with Keanu Reeves and the Bong Joon Ho-directed Okja.
All the while, she also became known, if not more so in some circles, for her smart style and cool-best-friend-vibe Instagram account.
"I don't know," she told The Guardian in 2012. "I look at what I've done and I go: 'What? Really?' It still feels so abnormal not to have had to do those particular sorts of projects [kid-and-teen fare, that is] to get here."
But the outward evidence of a charmed life didn't always reflect the vulnerable person at the heart of it, so she decided to really introduce herself to the world with her 2017 essay collection Unfiltered: No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me.
"I'm still young but I'm older than I was 10 years ago and I've learned more about myself," Collins explained her intention behind the book to Flare in 2017, "so I thought these are the most relevant things that are going on with me right now and chances are if I've been through them, someone else will have and it may help spark conversations among other people if I speak up and tell my truth."
The stories she told ranged from poignant but lighter fare, such as how she finally came to embrace her enviably full eyebrows (she, eek, used to tweeze and shave them!) and the lessons she'd learned from being ghosted, to her struggle with body image issues that led to her developing eating disorders and an addiction to diet pills and laxatives when she was in high school.
Collins also wrote, without naming names, of an abusive relationship that started off feeling passionately romantic before devolving into "deceit, infatuation, codependency and some pretty dark s--t."
Admitting that she chose to ignore the many red flags, she ended up having panic attacks, breaking out in stress rashes and living entirely for this guy as she grew increasingly isolated from friends and family. Jill eventually encouraged her daughter to talk to a friend who'd managed to get out of his own destructive situation, and Collins subsequently broke up with the bad boyfriend. But after not speaking to him for awhile, he convinced her to talk it out in person and they got right back together.
And though she was increasingly unhappy, it took a group-call intervention from her mom and friends to finally get her to cut the guy off for good. Then came the process of wondering why she'd stayed with him for so long, followed by the realization that all the issues were not her fault, she had just been successfully manipulated by a person "dealing with his own identity crisis and insecurities."
Sometimes, she concluded in Unfiltered, "We need to be with the wrong person to recognize who the right one is, how he should treat us, and what kind of respect we deserve."
She acknowledged, however, that 28 was a young age at which to be reflecting on her life.
"I'm not saying that I'm all knowing or wise," she told Flare. "The book is not a tutorial or a how-to—these are truths that I've come to realize about myself, and about growing up, as I'm still growing up."
Lauding the "incredibly supportive, encouraging community of young women" who'd gathered as fans of her Instagram page, Collins also told Teen Vogue, "I've always been a huge advocate of young people helping other young people through open conversation, and I've never had a problem being a conduit through which honest conversation can happen. If that means being in an awkward situation or being vulnerable, that's been something I'm OK with.
"I thought, 'Well, this might be my opportunity to talk about a lot of things that I've gone through or experiences that I've had.' It's taken me to this point to come to terms with certain things and become comfortable enough to talk about them. I just felt that now was the right time for me to get some of these things off my chest."
Having grown up not exactly famous but very much spotlight-adjacent and the daughter of a thrice-divorced father, Collins knew at an early age that there would be certain things that she wouldn't want to share—such as intimate details of her dating life.
"I entered into this business knowing your private life can't always remain private," she explained to Glamour UK in 2013, when she was rumored to be dating her Abduction co-star Taylor Lautner. "I don't feel the need to profess anything publicly or confirm something that in a normal situation you wouldn't have to speak out about. If I'm out and photographed with someone, then that is what it is. We took that chance and, whatever... it is what it is."
She continued, "That's always my natural feeling. My family went through a lot of very public situations and I saw that side of it from a young age. My mum raised me to be normal, and I wanted to grow up and find out who I was and who I wanted to spend time with before anyone else did."
Having spent her youth primarily with her mother and eventually shedding her British accent, it took some years to develop the sort of bond with her dad that she craved as a child. But they have a solid relationship now, Lily writing to the Grammy winner on his 70th birthday Jan. 30, "Words aren't enough to express how much love and pride I have for you. After 7 decades on this planet, countless trips around the world, 5 kids, endless memories and a lifetime of stories... you're not done yet! You mean so much to me and I can't wait for all the adventures and years to come. I love you so much, to the moon and back again..."
In 2012, she told The Guardian she had fond memories of summers with her dad in Switzerland, where he moved after the divorce, and Christmases at the family farmhouse in West Sussex. "It's the best place to be for the holidays—all cold and wintry. Love the food, love the tea. I still feel very European," she said. And, despite her parents' rough split, "I've only ever known growing up across different countries—to me it's just fun."
Pressed on what sort of relationship she really had with her father growing up, she said, "I know the truth and I know how it was for me, and I know how much I love my family—and that's all that really matters."
Perhaps the publication of Phil's own warts-and-all memoir in 2016 partially inspired her decision to dig deeper and share that truth.
Writing about the end of his marriage to Jill, Collins' mom, Phil—who admitted to cheating but firmly denied the prevalent rumor that he dumped his second wife via fax—reflects on feeling "so sad for Lily, who is trying to make sense of all this mess her dad has made. I will always be sorry for that. I know that confessing to these feelings will unmoor Jill and Lily's lives, so I make the difficult decision to take the coward's way out: I say nothing."
Which is why Jill is the "total bad ass rock star" in Collins' actual book. She traveled the world with her mom, and credits her in Unfiltered for not only always being there for her, but for exposing her and her friends "to people from all walks of life," encouraging them "to step outside our comfort zones and experience the unknown."
They were so close, she explained, that she felt both inordinately excited to venture out on her own and a little guilty for leaving her mom (though when Lily first moved out she only went as far as down the street). But at the end of every day, Collins wrote, "She's my best friend, inspiration, role model, confidante, and partner in crime."
Meanwhile, her dad "may have still been alive, but most of the time it felt as if he were completely gone," she wrote. Lily recalls being constantly worried about living up to his expectations, craving approval that he wasn't there to give. Not being able to tell him how she felt only made her angrier, and she says it took about a decade before she drummed up the courage to speak her mind.
Not that having one huge talk solved everything (dads aren't always the best listeners, she notes), and Collins wrote in a letter to her father included in the essay about him in the book, "I forgive the mistakes you made. And although it may seem like it's too late, it's not. There's still so much time to move forward. And I want to. I'm inviting you to join me."
So, the situation was far more complicated than Collins had been ready to share five years beforehand.
They've settled into a groove now, though, Collins telling W last summer how she immediately texted her dad when the video of twin YouTube stars Tim and Fred Williams listening to "In the Air Tonight" for the first time went viral.
"I remember having this conversation with him when I was younger," she said. "I would share with him the music and the new bands that I was listening to at the time. He was just as inspired by young musicians and young artists, just as much as when you read interviews of up-and-coming artists and they talk about who they admire."
Collins has also never tried to pretend that growing up as she did, with the father she has, was bad for her career—either in terms of opportunity or being able to go with the star-studded flow.
"I don't get that feeling of panic or of being star-struck," she told The Guardian in 2012, talking about how people "like Elton" would go up to her and have memories from when she was a baby. "I grew up acknowledging these people as human beings who have a talent that is public. They're not some other species. But it doesn't mean that I get any less excited."
No wonder she didn't find the accolades for Mank—in which she played Rita Alexander, the stenographer tasked with keeping Herman Mankiewicz (Gary Oldman) sober enough to hammer out the screenplay for Citizen Kane while laid up with a broken leg—or the prospect of all the Oscar nominations the David Fincher-directed film was a shoo-in for particularly nerve-racking.
"I'm just really proud to be part of such an amazing ensemble," Collins said on Daily Pop. "And to be a part of something that people are responding to like this is really special."
Mank ended up with 10 Oscar nominations, including Best Picture, and won two, but Collins skipped the pandemic-delayed ceremony in April.
After shooting both Mank and Emily in Paris in 2019, she wasn't entirely averse to slowing down in 2020—though she hadn't planned on quite so much free time. For instance, she was excited to inject more of Emily's joie de vivre into her own wardrobe and there promised to be a long list of appearances for both projects, not to mention award season.
"Aaaaand then we went into lockdown," she quipped on Daily Pop.
At least that allowed for some sweet alone time with her fiancé, whom she met in 2019 when she was cast in his upcoming film, Gilded Rage—and then promptly fell in love with him.
"It was kind of one of those situations where I knew the second that I met him that I wanted to be his wife one day, and so it was just a matter of when really," she recalled on Live With Kelly and Ryan.
During quarantine McDowell taught her how to surf, which, she told InStyle, served as "a fun way to get over a fear of failing publicly." She read up on meditation (being able to savor the moment hasn't always come easy to her) and listened to Unlocking Us With Brené Brown, growing ever more in touch with herself always near the top of her to-do list. And it came in handy to have a boyfriend who knew his way around a camera so, when W came calling for a story, he could photograph her himself.
"I know it's super strange, but I haven't been stationary in one place for this long in—I can't remember how long," Collins told the magazine.
But though all was obviously going well 18 months into their relationship, she was still completely surprised when McDowell popped the question while they were on an RV trip through New Mexico and Arizona with their dog Redford. He had apprised their families of his plan ahead of time, but managed to keep her entirely in the dark—even when he was planting a camera to capture the moment for posterity.
"What's funny is that he totally wasn't [acting weird]," Lily shared on The Kelly Clarkson Show in December, "and he is the first to admit he's not an actor. He's a writer-director and usually he is just, like, very much emotions on his sleeve, you can tell what's going on. And he was so cool and I had no idea."
"Now looking back on it, though," she added, "he had taken his jacket off, put it back on, taken it off, put it back on, and I was like, 'I guess it's hot out, he's fidgeting with this clothes.' He had set up his camera for a self-timer so he got the whole thing on video but I thought he was just deciding whether he wanted to keep his jacket on...I didn't understand!"
"In hindsight I realized there were certain things I could've read into, but he was so cool, calm and collected."
As she said on The Drew Barrymore Show barely two weeks after the proposal during another stop on her virtual press tour, flashing the rose-cut diamond ring McDowell helped design with jeweler Irene Neuwirth, "I am the luckiest. I am so grateful and truly feel the happiest I've ever been. I am very, very lucky."
And while neither time nor award nominations nor even falling madly in love has made her life struggle-free, Collins knows it's all about who you choose to take the journey with and having that support system.
"We all have our insecurities," she told Kelly Clarkson. "For me, body image was a really big thing. I've been very vocal and open about my experiences with eating disorders and, just, now my fiancé is so supportive, and it's about finding new ways to feel centered and not reverting back to old ways...We all just need to say, we all go through these things and we're not crazy, and no one of us is alone. I think we all have those little things."
And when Drew Barrymore asked Lily how she had come to be "this person who exudes and conveys kindness and goodness," she again credited her mom for instilling her with her moral compass from the beginning. "I don't know," the actress said, "I'm just so grateful for every opportunity that I get and I'm just an innately happy, optimistic person, I guess."
They both agreed that being born into that world came with certain advantages, but it also could mean that you feel the urge to prove yourself that much faster.
"It gave me such a drive to want to feel like I deserved to be where I am," Lily said. "For a certain amount of time, a last name could be something that's interesting but, at the end of the day, you've got to bring something to the table. And yeah, I maybe had to grow up a little bit quicker, but I was also exposed to the pros and cons at an early age and I still chose it for me."
The people have spoken—23.7 million on Instagram and counting, 676 million minutes of Emily in Paris binged in its first week—and they've chosen her right back.
This story was originally published on Thursday, February 25, 2021 at 9 a.m. PT.