Nikki Bella Hits Her Breaking Point While Struggling With Postpartum Depression on Total Bellas

By Alyssa Ray Jan 22, 2021 3:00 AMTags
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Motherhood is hard.

On Thursday, Jan. 21's all-new Total Bellas, Nikki Bella opened up about the postpartum struggles she faced after Matteo Chigvintsev's birth. The former WWE wrestler found herself on the verge of a breakdown after fiancé Artem Chigvintsev departed to film Dancing With the Stars.

Having encouraged Artem to return to the popular dancing competition, Nikki felt conflicted over her feelings of wanting him home.

Nikki confided in twin Brie Bella, "I just feel confused 'cause I'm a new mom and, for some reason, thought I can handle it or do it all."

As she continued, Nikki revealed that she was "going through so much" and it was hard seeing Artem so happy away.

"There's a part of me that wants to discipline him for it," Nikki added before tearing up. "It's been so f--king hard. I'm trying to keep it together and…I'm about to lose it. I'm about to have a massive breakdown."

Apparently, even Nikki's doctor was worried about her postpartum depression as she suggested medicating the Total Bellas star.

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"So, the other day, my doctor was telling me people fall deep into postpartum depression and that she was worried about me," Nikki told the Total Bellas camera. "Because, she knows as a woman where our minds can be. The highs and lows are so extreme."

Per Nikki, one thing could lead her down a "dark hole."

While Brie encouraged her sister to be honest about her struggles, Nikki said she couldn't give Artem a "hard time" as she encouraged him to take the job.

A supportive Brie inquired, "Is there a way you guys can balance this all out? But, what is it you need from him? Because, there's obviously something missing."

Nikki's answer: "I need him."


In addition to needing help with Matteo, Nikki was overwhelmed by their upcoming move to Napa Valley. To make matters worse, Nikki shared that she wasn't sleeping.

She commented, "I'm just so tired."

Furthermore, she admitted to feeling jealous about Artem's chemistry with dance partner Kaitlyn Bristowe.

"It's not about her and him. Like, I don't have a fear of Artem going off. That's not it," she explained to Brie and Daniel Bryan. "It's wanting what she's getting from him. Can he come home and laugh with me? Can he come home and ask me how I'm doing? Like, I want to feel wanted and sexy."

Rather than tell her fiancé her needs, Nikki wanted Artem to just "do it."

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Reassuringly, Bryan told Nikki that he and Brie had been in a similar place before.

"I'm somebody who needs to be told like, 'Hey, what do you need from me?' 'What do you want from me?'" Bryan noted. "When we're working our best, it's when we both know what we want from each other."

Supporting this sentiment, Brie shared, "'Cause, you do get consumed too with your kids. And so, we do have to tell each other."

In a confessional, Brie shared that she didn't realize "how bad" Nikki's struggle was amid Artem's absence.

"I know how tiring it is," Brie further commented. "I know in the middle of the night, when you're breastfeeding for the third time, you're just using every ounce of energy to not fall asleep on your child."

Bryan encouraged Nikki by assuring her that motherhood is "really hard" and to not "feel bad" about her struggles.


He expressed, "Every woman is different and every man is different, you can't just expect him to know what you need, especially as a new mom. It's a different thing. You have to be ok asking for help."

On why she hadn't asked Artem for help, Nikki said she didn't want to be "that nagging woman" after pushing him to "fight for his dreams." However, she did acknowledge that she needed to speak to her fiancé.

It takes a village, folks.