It's been one year since Juice Wrld tragically died of an accidental overdose, but his girlfriend at the time of his death, Ally Lotti, says her grief hasn't lessened.
On Monday, Dec. 7, Ally reflected on the loss of the rapper, née Jarad Higgins, sharing on Twitter, "to this day, i can not get on a plane or hear sirens - tooo triggering." She went on to share on her Instagram Story that she remembers his death and their last conversation like it "was yesterday."
"If if it wasn't for your love I wouldn't have ever even made it this far," she continued. "I kno you're here w me endlessly... not a sec goes I don't wish for atleast one more second longer w you (sic)"
In since-deleted tweets shared by People, Ally also revealed she suffered a series of pregnancy losses prior to and after Juice Wrld's overdose, describing the experience as "one of the many secrets ive dealt w alone."
"It's all he wanted," she added in another since-deleted tweet. "We worked a lot and it took a tol [sic] on my body I was always sick. Three miscarriages and after he passed away one more due to stress ... one of the first ppl to call me after he passed was my OB/GYN."
Ally witnessed Juice Wrld's death at the Chicago Midway Airport on Dec. 8, 2019.
According to authorities, police and federal agents were waiting in the airport terminal for the rapper and his entourage on the suspicion that they were allegedly in possession of contraband. Upon taking them into custody, the artist began convulsing and was administered two doses of narcan, a medication that treats overdoses in an emergency situation. After being administered the medication, police said Juice Wrld woke up, but he was incoherent and bleeding from the mouth.
The Illinois native was later transported to Advocate Christ Medical Center, where he was pronounced dead at 3:14 a.m.
Juice Wrld was laid to rest in a private funeral on Dec. 13. At the time, his mother said in a statement that she hopes her son's death helped others overcome their "struggle with addiction."
"Addiction knows no boundaries and its impact goes way beyond the person fighting it," she told TMZ. "Jarad was a son, brother, grandson, friend and so much more to so many people who wanted more than anything to see him defeat addiction."
He was 21 at the time of his death.