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Duane "Dog the Bounty Hunter" Chapman grieved the death of his wife, Beth Chapman, on Wednesday night's finale of Dog's Most Wanted and spoke about how he contemplated suicide shortly after her passing.

During the episode, the TV star recalled being alone in the shower and needing to "run out without a towel because I can't be alone right now." 

"That's when I start thinking about things," he told the cameras, per People. "And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog."

Dog then explained he didn't "realize yet psychologically" that his spouse was gone.

"I just hope that I don't live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she's through the gate," he later told the WGN America show, per the outlet. "She paved a way for me. I want to take a g-- d--- pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal and I got to heaven and was like, ‘Hi honey,' and would she go, 'You d--- a-- why would you do that?' Or, would she go, 'Wow, you're here.' I'll be like ‘Of course I'm here. You left me. I'm here.' So, am I obligated to do that?"

Dog opened up about watching his late wife on TV this season during an interview with E! News' Daily Pop in September.

"I kind of walked away a few times just to listen to the voice," he shared with Carissa Culiner and Will Marfuggi before tearing up. "America loves Beth. She had double the fans that I had."

Beth died in June 2019 following her battle with throat cancer. Her family members honored her with memorial services in both Colorado and in Hawaii.

If you or someone you know is struggling, please call Lifeline at 13 11 14 or visit lifeline.org.au.

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