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Top Chef: I Didn't Deserve to Go Home, Says Eliminated All-Star

Booted cheftestant sounds off about not making it to the finals. Bitter? You be the judge

By Marc Malkin Mar 24, 2011 5:50 PMTags
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Top Chef: All-Stars is down to the final two.

After last night's elimination challenge winner was announced, the remaining pair competed in a cook-off for the final spot.

So who was left standing and who was sent home after the grueling two-part challenge?

Read on to find out what the booted cheftestant just told me...

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Antonia Lafaso was told to pack her knives and go. It was a tough night, going back to the kitchen with Mike Isabella after Richard Blais was named the winner of the "last supper" challenge. Isabella made it through with lobster tail and beef tartare, but Lafaso was told her grouper in a coconut and lobster broth had, again, too much flavor.

How are you feeling today?
I'm OK. I kind of had my own moment of silence, so to speak, when I came home from the Bahamas in January. It was upsetting last night. I cried. I'm not going to lie...But you know what? Today is a new day.

So how much did you cry? Are you usually a crier?
Oh, I was a mess. I was a blubbering mess. A blubbering mess. I don't even have another word to describe it. I could not form two words for quite some time afterwards. I'm usually not a public crier. But I think Top Chef brings that out in me—a very vulnerable side. It's like that movie, A League of Their Own: "There is no crying in baseball." There's kind of no crying in the kitchen.

Would you ever do it again?
You know, being on Top Chef is sort of like giving birth. You forget about the pain after a couple of years, but I don't know. In a couple of years, I might do it again. We'll see.

How hard was it to be there and missing your daughter back at home?
It may sound kind of sick, but I really had to put it out of my head. The thing that frustrates me so much is watching an episode of Top Chef and seeing the mom early on the show start crying about her child and be sent home in the second episode. I'm like, "What's wrong with you? Get it together. Your kid doesn't want to see you get sent home on the second episode. Put it out of your head and work really hard!" So I kind of said early on that I didn't want to be that. It may sound a bit cold and callous but my daughter would appreciate it in the end. And lemme tell ya, she's very proud of her mama.

Do you think you deserved to go home?
I did not feel like I deserved to go home. I feel like I deserved to be there to the end.

Then who?
It could have been Richard or Mike. [Laughs.] At the end of the day, I wanted to be there until the end. But I do have to say that I have to trust in the judges' decision. I played fair. And I think the judges played fair. It was hard to swallow. And it was hard to swallow last night listening to their comments...Unfortunately, it's not a cumulative show. If it was cumulative, I would have been there at the end. You can check the scoreboard. Check the scoreboard, please.

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