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Fredrik Eklund and husband Derek Kaplan shared heartbreaking news with fans.
Bravo's Million Dollar Listing New York star announced on Facebook and Instagram Tuesday that the surrogate carrying their twins has miscarried. "I'm sad to share we've had a failed pregnancy. I have cried so much that I can't cry anymore. We were pregnant with twins but we're not anymore," Eklund wrote.
The couple chronicled their journey to parenthood publicly after announcing the pregnancy in April, discussing it on episodes of Million Dollar Listing New York and sharing milestones of the pregnancy on their social media accounts. Eklund decided it was fitting to share the devastating news with their fans as soon as possible.
"I chose to share this here, because I made this quest for Milla (and hopefully her sibling) public a long time ago. Every day I meet people congratulating me and Derek on the baby news, I get baby clothes sent to the office by kind strangers, and it seems that more people are invested in our little family than I could ever imagine," Eklund wrote. "Our family is no different from yours...we just want to build our own unit of love in our own home."
The couple's desires did not go unnoticed. Just two weeks ago, the author of The Sell posted a photo of two children with the caption, "Soon." The real estate broker now says he can identify with couples who have been through similar tragedies on a far more personal level.
"The last couple of days I couldn't take it anymore, to upkeep this perception of happiness and success when I've been a total sad mess inside," Eklund wrote. "I've felt like a failure and that I'll never get to where I want to go: for me and Derek to finally become parents. I've heard these stories so many times before, about couples who've tried so hard and for so long but now I fully understand how difficult it can be."
The couple, who wed in 2013, may be heartbroken, but they haven't lost hope in their quest to be parents.
"We will try again. We have to. I'm not giving up. We're just not going to give up!" he wrote. "We have to go on and simply try again."
Until that day comes, Eklund said he will be spending a lot of time with his husband, family, friends and dogs—he even lets his dog, Mini, lick away his tears. Still, many questions about his unborn children remain—particularly about the daughter they had decided to name Milla.
"Where is she now? Is she already out there somewhere, above? Is she waiting for us like she's always been waiting, just a little longer?" Eklund asked. "Can she see all of this, but just doesn't have a worldly form yet to reach out, give me a sign and make me stronger?"
Our thoughts and prayers are with the pair during this difficult time.
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