Alex J. Berliner/ABImagesGrief truly does manifest in many forms.
Michelle Rodriguez revealed in a recent interview with Entertainment Weekly that, for run, tried to out-run the sadness she felt after Paul Walker died on Nov. 30, 2013, leading to a number of questionable decisions in 2014.
"I actually went on a bit of a binge," she admitted (tearfully, per the mag). "I went crazy a little bit...I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind."
Last year's activities did include a lot of jet-setting after production on Furious 7 wrapped, as well as a summer fling with Zac Efron and a lot of cozy-looking time spent with Cara Delevingne.
A source told E! News after Efron and Rodriguez went their separate ways that Delevingne did dominate Rodriguez's attention a lot of the time, even when she was vacationing with Efron. But overall, things ended positively.
"They saw comfort in each other and connected on their experiences in rehab and were really good for each other," the insider said about Zac and Michelle.
"I was pushing myself to feel," Rodriguez recalled to EW. "I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was traveling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling."
So, how did she eventually emerge from the fog of grief?
"I just woke up [one day] with a profound respect for living," she said. "I stood tall one day and I said, ‘You know what, Michelle? Stop f--king hiding. Go manifest.' And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling."
Just in time for the major splash that Furious 7 is bound to make. The hugely anticipated film, featuring Walker and his brothers, Cody and Caleb, who worked as body doubles and stand-ins on the production after the actor died, is due in theaters April 3.