When Demi Lovato stepped onto the red carpet at the 2014 MTV Video Music Awards, she felt nothing short of "beautiful."
It's a honest admission from the "Heart Attack" singer who has struggled with self-esteem and body issues for much of her teenage years.
But in an emotional Instagram post Monday morning, Lovato reflects on how far she's come since her first appearance at the annual award show.
"I remember the day I wore the dress in the very first picture. I remember asking for spanx to flatten my stomach because I use to feel so heavy and ‘fat'," she writes. "Now looking at this picture, you can clearly see my hip bones."
She adds, "It makes me sad because I wasted so many years ashamed of my body when I could've been living the happy and healthy life I live today."