James Spader Reveals His Childhood Sexual Fantasy (and What He Regrets Most About It)

James Spader sure doesn't hold back in the latest issue of Playboy magazine.

The Avengers: Age of Ultron actor opens up about his childhood and how sexuality played a major part in his upbringing.

"Our house was very progressive and very liberal," he explained. "The bathroom doors were always left open, and half the time my mother would come out of the living room half-naked to make some announcement. My two sisters certainly were the same, as was I. I was always around dominant and influential women, and that left a great impression."

Spader added, "I don't know a time when sexuality wasn't the prism through which I saw the world. At an extremely early age I was always the first one to say, 'Let's play doctor,' with every female neighbor."

The 54-year-old also revealed his sexual fantasies during his formidable years, saying, "When I was young, a lot of my sexual fantasies were about older women.

"I must say, if I knew then what I know now, I would've had many more encounters when I was a kid delivering groceries. Some of those wives would answer the door in their nightgowns in the middle of the day. I wasn't shy, obviously, just not wise enough. I was an idiot."

The Blacklist star concluded his interview by addressing some of his more private habits, and how he has a tendency towards being "ritualistic."

"I have an addictive personality," he told the magazine. "There's a compulsion to [how I] address things. I can't just let them fester or get pushed under the rug."