Not everything in Lindsay Lohan's life is intended for public consumption.
During Sunday's conclusion of her eight-part OWN docu-series, the 27-year-old actress opened up about the handwritten "sex list" that revealed 36 men she's allegedly hooked up with over the years. The dossier was written while Lohan was in rehab at the Betty Ford Center and published by In Touch magazine; the tabloid revealed one half of her partners in one issue and the second half in another.
"That was a part of my [time at] Betty Ford. It's step number five or step number eight," Lohan said, referring to the 12 steps followed by Alcoholics Anonymous. "It's your sexual inventory. That was in my Betty Ford book, so that was really personal to my sponsor. You write that for your sponsor."
(Step five is admitting the exact nature of one's wrongs. Step eight is listing all who one has harmed.)
The Inconceivable actress believes the list was discovered when she was vacating the Beverly Hills Hotel. "There were two people there that helped me move," Lohan recalled. "All of my books from [Betty Ford] were in that. So, someone took a photo." The star did not identify the person on camera.
Does she know who did it? "Pretty sure I know who it is, unfortunately," Lohan said. "They're not a part of my life at all anymore. They might be on the show at some point, but they're not [in my life]."
After her exploits were made public, the 2 Broke Girls guest star worried how the men on the list—many of whom are now married—might react. "I don't care about me in that situation. I care about the people that are involved with other people because it's really unfortunate and disrespectful," she said.
Lohan pities the person who provided the tabloid with her list of lovers. "The fact that that happened was not only humiliating, but just mean. It was mean-spirited for someone to do that," she said of the betrayal. "That is a desperate human being and I hope they find some peace. Because anyone that's willing to do that to someone else is really f--ked up in the head. And I don't want that in my life."
The New York native added that she's looking forward to putting the past behind her shooting her new movie in June. "I'm happy," Lohan during her final docu-series interview. "The biggest thing I learned from his experience and doing this show is my work ethic is different. I have that fire back in me."