Tori Spelling Breaks Silence on Dean McDermott's Affair: "He Was My Soul Mate, But He Completely Broke My Heart"

Mystery Girls star says she feels "so judged" but adds that "it's not black and white"

By Zach Johnson Apr 16, 2014 2:44 PMTags
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Unlike her husband, Tori Spelling has nothing to hide.

The actress is opening up about the affair that rocked her marriage for the first time, saying, "I feel so judged, but it's not black and white." Dean McDermott admitted to straying in a recent sneak preview for the upcoming Lifetime docu-series, True Tori. The couple began filming just days after McDermott left rehab for sex addiction. "He was my soul mate, but he completely broke my heart," Spelling tells Us Weekly of her husband. "It makes you not trust anything that's happened in your relationship."

The actors—parents to sons Liam, 7, and Finn, 20 months, plus daughters Stella, 5, and Hattie, 2—met on the 2005 set of Lifetime movie Mind Over Murder. The co-stars began dating while they were both married to other people. McDermott also has a 15-year-old son, Jack, with ex-wife Mary Jo Eustace.

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In the True Tori trailer, McDermott admitted to being "out of control" during what appeared to be a counseling session. "Sex was an escape, just like drugs and alcohol," the Chopped Canada host said.

"I could never give him enough sex," Spelling said, crying. "He's never going to be happy with just me."

True Tori premieres Apr. 22. Her scripted series, Mystery Girls, debuts June 25 on ABC Family.