Peaches Geldof's touching words about motherhood and her children have become a haunting final coda in the wake of her sudden death just yesterday.
The 25-year-old mother of two had recently begun as a columnist for U.K.-based magazine Mother & Baby, and what turned out to be her final column for the publication has been published posthumously, "as a tribute to Peaches and with the blessing of her family."
In her last column, penned sometime before her 25th birthday on March 13 because she refers to herself as 24, Geldof credits sons Astala and Phaedra with rescuing her from a life of "wanton wanderlust."
"I wanted an anchor— I craved it," wrote the daughter of Irish rock musician and philanthropist Bob Geldof and TV presenter Paula Yates, who died in 2000 of a drug overdose. "And, when I had two wailing, smiling, joyful little blobs of waddling pink flesh, they became my entire existence, and saved me from one of pure apathy."
Sure, becoming a mum put a hitch in her social life, once all of her party friends started staying away and her closest friends remained in her life but life couldn't help but get in the way of their usual girl-bonding time.
Geldof then recalled the moment when Astala and Phaedra came running/crawling into her room and put all of her doubts about the 180-degree lifestyle change to rest.
"Everything else was nothingness and it just... didn't matter. I had the perfect life—two beautiful babies who loved me more than anything. It was, and is, bliss. "
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"Now, with a new-found group of mummy mates, both locally and online...I'm happier than ever," Geldof concluded. "My real old friends have stuck by me and connect me to my old life (I sometimes forget I'm only 24), treating me to nights out that let me forget about dirty nappies at least for a minute.
"So, I've achieved a sort of perfect balance. Right now life is good. And being a mum is the best part of it."
Geldof, a model and TV personality in her native Britain, was found dead in her home Monday morning. An autopsy is expected to take place tomorrow, but police have said that they are not investigating her death as suspicious.
Husband Thomas Cohen said in a statement: "My beloved wife Peaches was adored by myself and her two sons Astala and Phaedra and I shall bring them up with their mother in their hearts every day."