Lindsay Lohan lays it all out there on Monday's episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show.
The 27-year-old actress sits down with host Ellen DeGeneres to discuss her OWN docu-series, Lindsay, and sheds new insight into her relationship with ex Wilmer Valderrama and her multiple rehab stints.
"You've been in rehab a bunch, right? Like six times, is that right? DeGeneres asks the movie star. "So does this, because there's cameras following you, is that what helped you, I think, be healthy? You said you were healthier than you've ever been. Do you think that gave you pressure to be healthier?"
"When I went to treatment this time, when I went to Cliffside, I really wanted a moment for myself and I learned a lot of different tools and things that I didn't in the past. In the past, a lot of it people don't know this, but I was sent to rehab to avoid, you know, them trying to put me in jail. So it wasn't something that I necessarily wanted or was ready for. It was something that it was kind of just going with the motions," Lohan admits. "This was the first time where I went to Shawn Holley, my lawyer, and said, 'Look, I need some time. I need to figure something out. It was through kind of meditation and learning different things, and just growing up as well and being like, 'I'm tired and I want to be working and all these other girls are doing this and I've been doing this my whole life'...and maybe, you know, that's what makes me happy. So I'm just going to do what I have to do to get there again."
After completing rehab last year, Lohan relocated to her home state. "By moving to New York I can walk on the street and be a human being," the famous redhead explains. "Like, I can be normal!"
The paparazzi still follow Lohan, but she says it's less intense than it used to be. "I've been in in L.A. for two weeks and thank god I'm leaving tomorrow because...they have not bothered me at all. It's totally different now. It's strange. I also don't put myself in the same situations. There is nothing left for me in going out to a certain place if I know what it's going to result in," she says. "It's just not worth it to me."
Lohan isn't dating anyone, though she's been rumored to use the Tinder dating app. "You know what is so funny?" she asks. "My brother went on my Instagram and did that...I've never been on Tinder."
The Mean Girls star isn't interested in downloading it, either. "I'm okay with just taking care of me, she says. "I just want to work and take care of me right now. I don't really...That's not even a thought."
In fact, during one of Lohan's prior appearances on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, she was so focused on her relationship issues that she wasn't as committed to her music career she would have liked to be.
"I don't remember you actually ever singing," DeGeneres says. "Did you sing longer than just on my show?"
"That's great," Lohan replies, laughing. "That's probably why I'm not singing right now!" She then adds, "I didn't really do much promotion for it. I love music. Music is a huge part of my life, just in general."
Referring to when she performed the rock ballad "Over" on Dec. 16, 2004, Lohan says, "I was really nervous that day I remember...That was a really emotional song...I'd just broken up with someone."
"Who?" DeGeneres asks.
"Apparently there's a list of many guys," Lohan says, joking about her allegedconquests from In Touch.
"I have a list of people," the host says, kiddingly. "I hear there's a list going around of all [mine, too]."
Jokes aside, Lohan admits, "It was Wilmer...I was really upset, and that song I had written like the day after and we were still living together. I sang it in his house. Tortured him just recording the song so loud in his house… And I was filming [Herbie Fully Loaded] at the same time...there was a lot going on."
Valderrama may be out of the picture, but Oprah Winfrey has no intention of leaving Lohan's side.
"I speak to her almost everyday and she's just been so amazing to me," the actress says. "Even before the show was coming out I was getting really panicked cause I hadn't really heard my name anywhere in so long. I would turn on the TV and it was right after the Oscars, so I thought I'd have like a minute. I thought it would kind of like distract from the show, which is probably not a thing they would want to hear from the network. But then I just kept hearing my name and I started getting really like panicked about it and I just called her and she was just talking me through it and everything and she got me really into meditation. I mean that. She's one of the reasons why that's such a big part of my life. She's just been a really strong guiding light and force to me as a friend and someone that I admire."
DeGeneres, who is also friends with Winfrey, then smiles at Lohan and tells the Canyons star, "I'm glad that she came into your life and I'm glad you're listening to her, cause she does have good advice."