Lindsay Lohan Reality Show First Look: I Feel Like a Prisoner All the Time

"People have an image of me that it's just chaos," the Mean Girls star says in the first promo

By Alyssa Toomey Mar 05, 2014 11:22 AMTags

It's been over seven months since Lindsay Lohan left rehab after her court-mandated stint, and now we're getting an inside look at her life post-treatment.

The first look at LiLo's self-titled reality show Lindsay, which will air on Oprah Winfrey's network OWN, has been released, and it's filled with tears, fights and rehab revelations, showing us all that life hasn't been smooth sailing for the troubled actress following her sixth attempt at getting sober.

"There's nothing left in having a drink for me," the Mean Girls star says at the beginning of the clip. "What's left in that feeling? Nothing. There's no party that I haven't gone to, there's no person I haven't hung out with. There's no situation I haven't been exposed to," she confesses as the camera cuts to a flurry of shutterbugs following the 27-year-old star.

The "documentary series" sheds light on Lindsay's life under the prying eye of the pesky paps after the actress moved from Los Angeles to NYC. Directed by Emmy nominee Amy Rice, the show follows LiLo on her "journey through recovery following a very public period of crisis," according to the official press release.

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"I don't want them following me to an AA meeting," she says as she sits in her apartment with a companion.

"Do you ever feel like a prisoner?" the redheaded starlet is asked. "Yes, all the time," she replies with a sigh.

The video also features Lindsay's parents, Dina and Michael Lohan as it shows clips of LiLo and her family. And while her mother is "so excited" to have her daughter back in New York, Lindsay's conversation with her father is a different story.

"See now you're getting me angry, because you weren't good for me for a long time in my life," she exclaims during a heated discussion with her dad, where she appears on the brink of tears.

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And that's not the only emotional scene that goes down in the less-than-two-minute video.

"People have an image of me that it's just chaos," she says in another shot while dining with a pal. "I don't want all the negative s--t that's going on and the stress that might show through on camera," she admits as the camera cuts to her crying.

"It's good good good good good and then there's that thing in my head where it's like 'Oh, time to sabotage,'" she confesses as a shot of the starlet sobbing while seemingly feuding with the crew is shown.

Ready for Lindsay? The wild ride premieres on Sunday, March 9, at 10 p.m. on OWN.