Cate Blanchett better finally get used to the fact that she isn't going anywhere.
"You know that [you're a pessimist] when you win an Oscar and you walk offstage and your first thought is, 'Oh God, I've peaked,'" the Australian star, who won Best Supporting Actress for playing Katharine Hepburn in The Aviator and is considered a lock to be nominated for her leading role in Blue Jasmine this year, told the U.K.'s Observer in a recent interview.
Happily, the star of stage and screen, who also runs a theater company Down Under with husband Andrew Upton never let all of her uncertainty get in her way.
"I'm an active person—the thought of waiting for the phone to ring wasn't something that sat happily with me," Blanchett said, admitting that she was never even sure she wanted to pursue acting. "But I kept doing it, trying not to do it, and then doing it. There's such a blessed unrest that you feel all the time, but maybe that's what keeps you going."
Speaking of unrest, the 44-year-old mother of three also revealed that she worries about losing Upton at a young age because her father died of a heart attack at 40.
"The earliest memory I have is seeing him in bed when I was 18 months old—I later learned he was recuperating from his first heart attack at 32. He died when he was 40...but I don't think I really quantified the consequences for me until much later, when my husband reached 40. I was euphoric at his birthday party, like a weight had been lifted. And I thought: 'Now there's the detritus.'"
For the record, Blanchett's playwright-filmmaker hubby of almost 16 years is now 47.
But of course, despite the somewhat personal details the prolific thesp and longtime face of SK-II Beauty revealed to the Observer, she herself admits that there's really only so much she can tell us.
"No one is ever who they purport to be," she said. "And I suppose I'm most interested in the gap between who we project socially and who we really are."