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    Mike Tyson Won't Make Amends to Woman He Was Convicted of Raping, Talks About Drinking, Dying

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    Mike Tyson is fighting for his life—and this time, it's happening outside the ring. Less than a week after the former heavyweight boxing champ revealed that he suffers from alcoholism and admitted to having suicidal thoughts, the 47-year-old reality star opened up to Today's Matt Lauer about his personal struggles on Thursday, August 29.

    "When I start drinking and I relapse, I think of dying," Tyson explained. "When I'm in a real dark mood, I think of dying, and I don't want to be around no more...I won't survive if I don't get help."

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    Tyson described his mind as a "strange and scary" place and admitted that 12 days of sobriety has made him "mean and irritable." (He said he recently attended an Alcoholic Anonymous meeting.)

    "It's a real challenge because I don't know if I like this sober guy," he told Lauer. "It's hard for me to live normal. Straight is hard. Livin' straight life is hard."

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    During an Aug. 23 press conference, Tyson stunned reporters and fans when he decided to go public about his private pain. "I'm on the verge of dying because I'm a vicious alcoholic," he told the shocked crowd. "I've been lying to everybody else that thinks I was sober, but I'm not." (In a 2012 Nightline interview, Tyson said he had been sober for three years.)

    Though his headline-making behavior would indicate otherwise, Tyson insisted that he's actually a "very vulnerable" person. He also said that he's been dealing with the same demons he currently faces since childhood.

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    When he recently returned to his Brownsville, Brooklyn neighborhood for a TV taping, Tyson was reminded of his tough upbringing. "It told me a lot—I found out a lot about myself. I'm still a scared little boy. Still afraid." Tyson's father abandoned him around the time he was born, and his mother died when he was 16. Before becoming a boxing sensation, he was arrested multiple times for committing petty crimes.

    Though Tyson is taking responsibility for many of his transgressions, there is one incident he won't apologize for: his three-year prison stint in the early '90s. After being convicted of raping Miss Black Rhode Island Desiree Washington, he served time from 1992-95.

    "I don't really think I have to make amends to that, because I've done nothing," Tyson said of Washington, maintaining his innocence. "I really didn't do anything to her. I didn't rape her. I didn't beat her, I didn't do anything to her. And I'm not gonna make amends. I made amends to myself. But to her, no."

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    Tyson later became emotional when Lauer asked how he's able to both succeed and fail at such high levels. "No one's failed more than I did. Nobody's seen more than I seen, none of these fighters, none of these athletes. I'm the king of the barbarians," he said. "There's no one that could surpass me and the pain that I've endured."

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