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Amber Portwood says she's facing up to her addictions the hard way.
The erstwhile Teen Mom issued a statement from prison to coincide with her hit reality show's reunion special that aired Tuesday night on MTV with Dr. Drew. In it, she talked about how she "got lost" in drugs and alcohol and how her main goal now is to get clean once and for all so she can become a mom again to 3-year-old daughter Leah.
"Right now I'm trying to figure out what I'm doing with my life. I guess I just got lost. I went to jail because I had an addiction to opiates. You live and you learn and that's real," she wrote in the letter which was read during the broadcast. "It was time for me to stop partying and realize that even though I'm 21, I'm not a normal 21-year-old—I'm a mother. Which means I have to grow up quicker and start acting like a mother."
Portwood, 22, voluntarily chose in May to serve out her five-year jail term in an Indiana penitentiary instead of complying with the terms of her court-ordered drug program after violating her probation stemming from a December 2011 arrest for drug possession.
Now that she's behind bars, Amber states she's seen the error of her ways, but whether her eventual post-prison life will include baby daddy Gary Shirley is anybody's guess.
"My No. 1 priority right now in life is dedicating my life to being sober, to being a sober person. And to show my daughter that people make mistakes but you can always come back. If Leah learns anything from me she should see how becoming a teen mom can change you. How everything is postponed," Portwood said.
The MTV personality also expressed hope people might learn from her story.
"We made the show for a reason...some decisions change your whole life. If you don't want to take responsibility and use protection, don't have sex. One night can change your whole life into a sad story," noted Portwood, adding that the "mean person" viewers see on Teen Mom is far from reality.
"I want to show everybody that I can do it and I can start living a straight life and getting my family back in order," she concluded.
Let's hope she gets her act together.