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Octomom Nadya Suleman on Death Threat: "There's Bad Energy Everywhere"

In an interview with E! News, the mother of 14 describes the event and shares new information

By Bruna Nessif, Sharareh Drury Apr 11, 2012 2:17 AMTags
Nadya SulemanPaul Drinkwater/NBC

It looks like Octomom is in the middle of a pretty scary situation.

Nadya Suleman talked to E! News today about a possible death threat that involved an unidentified vandal smashing her car window on Saturday and a note recently discovered in the vehicle's backseat.

It all started early in the morning when Suleman heard noises outside of her home but decided not call the police.

"I was jet-lagged and tired," she says. "But I felt something was wrong. I was pretty scared, so I checked on the kids, checked the front of the house. Morning came and neighbors came while I was cooking breakfast. They said, 'Your car window is all smashed.' It dawned on me that was what I had heard. I'm blessed with those neighbors who told me. They look out for us."

Surprisingly, Octomom didn't want to file a police report because she hoped to maintain her privacy, "I can't stand the media attention and wanted to make everything private. My manager told me to report it. My dad reported it."

Suleman doesn't know who is responsible and says she "can't make assumptions" or "blame any group of people for it." She adds that, "It wasn't just hate mail, it was a threat." The mother of 14 notes that where she currently lives is a "nightmare" and there is "bad energy everywhere."

Because her daughter only recently discovered the disturbing note amongst other papers in the backseat, Suleman did not alert authorities about it in her police report. "There's so many papers that are thrown in the backseat," she explains. "I didn't notice any paper until my daughter found it and she said it didn't look normal."

Nadya guesses that someone smashed the window and then threw the paper inside, explaining this has happened before and these type of incidents are "a never-ending cycle."

Even though Suleman is under the public eye, she insists, "I'm no one special. Everyone has their own special story and survival and strength…I don't need this. I'm transparent and I have nothing to hide. I'm not ashamed of anything. Not with my children, no shame. At the end of the day, if you know who you are and you can answer to God you're a good person, that's all the matters."

"I can complain—who wouldn't. At this point, I am done. I am done with the complaining. I feel sorry for them," Suleman says of those who criticize her.

"If I reciprocate hate—I'm feeding them power. I need to give that to my children. At the end of the day, I am teaching my children to give power to yourself and God. I recently just learned to 100% train myself to be totally indifferent to people who criticize, who feel entitled. If I get caught up in their misery, I go down to their misery and I go down to their level."

As for the person who smashed her car, Suleman feels that, "If I met the person who did this and I talked to them for a minute or two, they'd realize I'm human and I have feelings."