Twitter; Phillip Massey/FilmMagic
Twitter; Phillip Massey/FilmMagic
This is one of those rare situations in which we wish that a celeb's Twitter account had been hacked.
But no, Sinéad O'Connor was the one tweeting increasingly disturbing thoughts Wednesday night, capping a seemingly suicidal rant off with, "Anyway.. If any1 knows how I can kill myself...Without my kids finding out I did it deliberately pls tell me asa f--kin p."
While the outspoken Irish singer appears to be in better spirits today, having posted on her blog a "revised love advert" seeking male companionship, her morbid tweets were apparently enough to concern her fans and get the cops involved.
E! News has confirmed that local police in Bray, County Wicklow, paid a visit to O'Connor's house after receiving a call from someone who had read her tweets.
"Had to go psychiatrist for routine renew prescription etc. She says I'm a bad mum and mental for talking so openly about sex in public," the Grammy winner typed Wednesday. "So now I wish suicide wud kill me."
"All this s--t we're not supposed to say. Including suicidal feelings, sex, etc. U just get treated like a crazy person. I want to go...To heaven SO bad. Have for yrs...But I don't wanna abandon my kids. But if I cud die without them knowing I did it myself I wud. An I know every1 will say I'm a c--t for saying that.. But f--k all this s--t we're 'not supposed to say'. I'm so tired. 24 yrs...Of being treated like a crazy person. Can't manage any more. Badly wish cud die without it ruining my kids lives."
O'Connor, 44, has four kids, ages 4 to 24.
And perhaps the supportive tweets she received back from fans—such as, "If anyone knows the lovely, clever, funny [Sinéad O'Connor] can they go and give her the hugest hug" and "hey girl I love you so much. I wish that I could come over and give you a big hug"—helped a bit.
Today, O'Connor's brash, self-deprecating sense of humor was cranking on all four cylinders again, as she told her Twitter followers, "revised man add is now on my site. Please grab link and tweet (as the actress said to the bishop while bashing him)."
She even told one fan: "well its v healthy u saying u feel suicidal. Who says it doesn't do it. Just don't do it. Have baths. Cuddle pillows."
In October 2007, O'Connor told Oprah Winfrey that she attempted suicide on her 33rd birthday in 1999, and had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2003. She has referred to herself as a lesbian, but married third husband Steve Cooney in July 2010.
She and Cooney split up in May, and O'Connor has attributed much of her recent unhappiness to the breakup. Her comments about wanting to catch a new man have just been her putting up a front, she says.
"+ truth is I only did all this for the last month cuz I was so depressed about me marriage breaking up an I got tired of crying," she also wrote Wednesday. "And tired of thinking I'm a s--t person all day. So I thought I'd turn it into something funny. And it worked! And I had more fun last 4 wks...Then had for yrs. And had self-esteem. So when I went into doc I was happy. Now I wish I was dead. No hope. Supposed to leave psychiatrist...Feeling happy.. Or at least hopeful. She crushes me. She's done it b4. Ruins me f--kin life. Anyway.. If any1 knows how I can kill myself...Without my kids finding out I did it deliberately pls tell me asa f--kin p."