In retrospect, Kat Von D could've saved herself some time and, more importantly, some of that press she seems to so detest, if she'd just canceled her LA Ink promotional tour yesterday morning.
Instead, she bailed on a scheduled E! News appearance (she was due to appear tonight, but pulled the plug yesterday, hours after her morning show storm out) along with the remainder of her press spots.
Though at least this time she explained herself...and how.
In a lengthy and obviously raw message posted on her Facebook page last night, Jesse James' former fiancée described her emotions both in the wake of yesterday's much-reported walkout of Good Day L.A., and in the past few months in general.
And just in case you wondered whether anyone was harder on the reality inker than herself, the post was titled, "What can I say? I suck."
"Today felt pretty impossible," she wrote. "Most of the times, regardless of what's going on around me, I'm usually strong enough to not let things get to me like this. But today there seems to be no way of escaping my thoughts.
"'What have I done?' 'I sure made a mess of things.' 'Wish today was over'…Somehow, I allowed today to get the best of me."
Von D went on to say that "none of this happened over night," and described her tumultuous, to say the least, year.
"The accumulation of things this past year have been challenging in so many ways, but for the most part I found it easy to stay positive throughout it...There was my relationship with Jesse, which regardless of how happy it made me, sprung a lot of negativity from the outside world.
"None of the above gave me reason to complain, and I didn't, and still don't—not even losing my cat in the fire. As crazy as it sounds, all of it brought me a great deal of reassurance that I was on the right path."
Kat explained that four years ago, she decided to get sober and said that if she hadn't, this past year would have seen her become "the world's biggest train wreck."
She also told fans that despite the nonstop media criticism and the seemingly familiar (and sudden) circumstances in which she and James broke off their engagement, she said that she "never before felt as solid and strong" as she did with him. Still, it wasn't without its detriments to her personal and professional lives.
"Lost a lot of friends, and even caused turmoil within some of my family members because of the bulls--t the media put out there...Some fans even changed their perception of who they thought I was."
Throughout her heartfelt posting, Kat revealed more details of her split (though again, if she had just done this yesterday morning, she could've avoided some of that so-called B.S. media she so hates), saying, "Never planned on walking away from this relationship, let alone the timing of things."
Still, she did own up to the responsibility for her walk-off.
"Today was really hard for me. And no one [is] to blame other than myself."
"As much as I'd like to picture me being this strong, independent woman, the truth is most of the time I'm not as strong as I'd like to be—but I'm still trying," she wrote.
"Although my intentions were never to offend or hurt anyone's feelings, this isn't an apology for walking out on a silly morning show interview this morning—and this isn't an attempt at justifying anything either. I don't expect people to understand, just like I can't expect myself to be able to please everyone at all times."
At that, she announced her plan to cut off her promotional tour—or at least, most of it.
"Tomorrow the new season of LA Ink starts and I admit I'm not strong enough to do all the press I committed to doing for the show. Today was a perfect example of that.
"I'm not going to flatter myself in thinking I'm interesting enough for the press not to pry into gossip-related questions so [it's] unfair of me to expect them to respect that...but even though it's not in my nature to cancel on people, it IS in my nature to admit when I'm weak.
"Ratings. Sales. Publicity. The amount of followers I have on twitter. None of those things matter to me."
Good thing. Something tells us they may all be about to take a dip.