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Forget the before-and-after weight loss pics that often flood our Instagram accounts—this woman is determined to promote a healthy body image on the social media site. 

20-year-old Amalie Lee is documenting her recovery from anorexia via her account @amalielee, sharing pics of herself wearing everything from a bikini to casual jeans and a t-shirt while posting inspirational messages and candidly sharing her weight gain story.

Amalie began struggling with her eating disorder in 2012 and later sought treatment at an outpatient center 

"I went through a depressive phase in my mid-teens, and my perception of myself hit an all-time low," the blond beauty shares. "I just wanted to disappear. My eating disorder was never about looking like a model, it was a way to cope. I made bizarre rules for myself about what I allowed myself to eat, when, where — even what spoon to use. These rules made me feel safe and in control. But I had lost control, and the obsessive need for control controlled me in every way."

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Amalie details her recovery down to her estimated calorie intake and says she had to learn how to take control of her own life. 

"My weight gain process," she wrote of the above pic. "Half a year between top left and down right. Reposting this to remind those of you that are in recovery that YES, the uneven weight gain WILL even out...The recipe? Eat 2500-35000 calories (+/-) and don't exercise. When you are recoverd and feel ready, eat after hunger-they will gradually return and you will eventually learn to recognize them."

Me during anorexia, and me now, recovered. The girl on the left was an empty shell, and had been so for too long. I pulled away from everybody, even myself. I was an actor, there was no life or sparkle in me, I acted like everything was fine when I was in fact slowly dying, mentally and physically. I was not in touch with reality, I was a paranoid, orthorexic, obsessive-compulsive sceleton that spent my days alone, in my own hole of misery, measuring my self-worth in numbers. I was 18, but I had the health of a 100-year old and body of a 10-year old. That was then. The girl on a right enjoyed a day in the african sun, and later had a large cheesy pizza for dinner, without a worry in the world. My body is happy now, I don't starve it and I don't restrict myself from so-called "unhealthy" foods, because for me, a diet that includes "unhealthy" foods is the healthiest. I am 19 now, soon 20. I've finished school and in a few months I'll move to a new country, all by myself, to study, to live, to develop. How did I do it? By realizing that I am the boss in my own life. It might sound harsh, but if I'd spent the rest of my life in the depths of anorexia that would be because of ME. Getting an eating disorder is not a choice, but recovery is. Yes, it is hard as hell, I felt like giving up so many times, but those feelings are not a reason to quit. Never tell yourself you can't, never start seeing yourself as a fragile victim that is ment to be miserable. Is your current situation making you happy? No? Then change it. Don't waste your life. Your future is in your hands. There is no magic moment where things change themselves, you have to fight for change, every day, no matter what?? #realcovery

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As for how she found recovery? 

"By realizing that I am the boss of my own life. it might sound harsh, but if I'd spend the rest of my life in the depths of anorexia that would be because of ME. Getting an eating disorder is not a choice, but recovery is," she explains. "Yes, it is hard as hell, I felt like giving up so many times but those feelings are not a reason to quit. Never tell yourself you can't, never start seeing yourself as a fragile victim that is meant to be miserable."

Just Amalie being Amalie?? #vegetarianburger #girlswithgluten #tastingtheworld #realcovery

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The blond stunner also posts pics of her weight gain and boasts about the new found strength her body has. 

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"I am damn proud of the physical change as you can see, and I enjoy showing you my progress. But always remember that healthy is not a look, and neither is recovery."

2013 vs 2015. Anorexia did not just randomly "let me go", and vanished by itself. I let go of anorexia, and it was not easy. Stop waiting for a perfect future moment when you are ready to recover, because life is what passes by whilst you waste your time waiting. Start NOW. There is no perfect recovery, perfect meal plan, perfect weight gain. You have to eat, sometimes you feel like you are exploding, expanding into infinity and loosing control, but you are not. By allowing yourself to heal you are IN control. Eating a whole chocolate cake by yourself because your body is so goddamn desperate after all the restriction, is actually GOOD, both for body and mind. We live in a society that labels calories as something negative, but that is not right! Calories allow your heart to beat and your hair to grow. Without calories, there is no recovery or life. Calorie is a term for energy, everything around you is energy, calories are your bodies energy, just like electricity for a light bulb and battery for your phone? Sometimes, when it hurts, it means you are doing something right. I sincerely believe there is hope for every eating disorder sufferer. The brain ghosts (as @fightthepoop nicely names it) will haunt you at times after the recovery process is gone, but those thoughts are not dangerous unless you turn them into actions. The screaming ED voice will gradually give up when it sees that you don't obey, and it will eventually turn into occasional whispering. IT GETS BETTER?? #realcovery

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And she encourages her followers to ignore society's perceived body ideals. 

"For some, recovery may mean letting go of a body seen as 'fit' and ideal by society, and instead embrace a higher body fat percentage. A woman might get praised for her six back, when she is in fact eating 1000 calories a day to maintain a body fat percentage so low that she does not even have her period. Social media rationalize eating disorders at times. It is not healthy to be ripped for fat. It is not healthy to eat restrictive. It is not healthy to obsess over weight or food." 

While Amalie has not revealed her past nor her current weight, she says that "recovery was worth every tear." 

We bet it was also worth it for all the people she's inspired. Props to Amalie for providing such a positive message on social media. 

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