YouTube Star Bethany Mota Covers Latina Magazine, Reveals Her Struggle With Bullying: "I Felt Trapped"

Mota strikes a sultry pose and discloses how she overcame anxiety attacks brought on by cyber-bullying

By Holly Passalaqua Jul 29, 2015 1:48 AMTags
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YouTube sensation Bethany Mota sizzles on the cover of Latina magazine and the brunette beauty doesn't hold back when talking about her dark days and how she came out on top.

Mota appears on the lifestyle mag wearing a white, floral midi dress that hugs her envious curves. The gorgeous celeb is seen kneeling on a bed with her long, luscious locks pinned up in a daring updo.

The former Dancing with the Stars cast member reveals that she was a victim of extreme cyber-bullying and it was finding her place on YouTube that helped her through it. 

"It got to the point where I had really bad anxiety. I could barely eat.  I would get excited because I could actually put one meal down. I didn't even want to hang out with family members. I couldn't go to the mall because I started get anxiety attacks when I was around a lot of people," Mota explained.

She disclosed to the magazine that her depression didn't get the best of her and that she found her way out in a very surprising way. 

"It lasted for maybe half a year or maybe a little longer than that. I just remember feeling oh my God, this is going to be my life forever. I'm always going to be too scared to live life and to love myself. I got to this point where I was just sick of everything and I felt very trapped. I got to this point like I don't even know if I can shake this. I feel like I'm stuck here. Well, I have to try something. That's when I started doing the videos."  she said. 

The cover girl says that it was through vlogging that she overcame her depression and now preaches self-acceptance. 

But what I've learned is, something that I've tried to master the past year and half, is self love and having this predetermined vision of myself and knowing that I love myself. I love who I am. There's constantly going to be not just comments, but there's some bullying that happens even in work places where people don't realize they're being bullies. I know who I am. No matter what happens today, no matter what anyone tells me, this is how I feel about myself. Just trying to maintain that, which is hard, but I think once you've learned to love yourself, it becomes a lot easier."

E! News caught up with Mota after she was eliminated from DWTS where she looked back at her time on the series as a learning and growing experience. "I didn't expect myself to get this far in the competition," she told E! News. "I had such a good time out there," Mota said. 

Watch the video below to see what she has planned for the future! 

Watch: What's After "Dancing With the Stars" for Bethany Mota?