Charlie Sheen 'Fesses Up About Public Meltdown: "Psychotic Break" Left Him in "Total Denial"

One-time warlock comes clean about his trainwreck of a breakdown and the relationships he's still hoping to repair

Has the tiger-blood-infused warlock with Adonis DNA been humbled?

Sure looks that way: Charlie Sheen has opened up to Playboy about his notorious 2011 breakdown, giving a sprawling and no-holds-barred interview that touches on all the salacious and cringe-worthy deets.

Goddesses? Jon Cryer? Chuck Lorre? Remorse? Let's start ticking them off...

"I don't know what happened," he admits to the mag. "I think I cracked."

The Anger Management star, however, seems to think that the root of his mental and emotional crash had a lot to do with, well, lotsa bottled-up anger.

"It was the buildup of all the time I've been in the business, the divorces and everything," he says. "I started to unravel. I was mad about having to play the game—not that I was playing it well, but I'd been doing it for so long. I finally just said the things I had always been thinking. But in the middle of a psychotic break."

The experience itself was "surreal," he says, and he cops to being "shocked" at the momentum that the fallout generated.

"It never occurred to me where this stuff was going to end up or how it was going to be perceived," he says. "I didn't care about anything beyond the moment. And then I was a little shocked by how huge the whole thing became. It was like an organism you couldn't stop. It kept growing."

Despite a trainwreck of a meltdown that saw him enter rehab, ruthlessly rip Two and Half Men showrunner Chuck Lorre and costar Jon Cryer, get fired from the show, embark on a universally trashed national tour, and shack up with a harem of "goddesses," Sheen admits that he was completely clueless about how far off the deep end he'd gone.

"I was in total denial," he says. "I felt I was winning by finally being able to speak my mind. I felt that was some sort of victory. And then it was fueled by the insane public outpouring of support."

Although there doesn't seem to be any love lost been Sheen and Lorre—"I'm not working with CBS or Warner Bros. or Chuck anymore. Good news for them and good news for me"—he does regret slamming Cryer, whom he called a "troll."

"That was wrong. I whaled on him unnecessarily," Sheen confesses. "He just got caught in the crossfire. He's a beautiful man and a f--king fabulous dude and I miss him. I need to repair that relationship, and I will. I will reach out and do whatever is necessary."

Great to see the former Two and a Half Men star manning up.